The journey back to Malaysia

May I never boast except in the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ, through which the world has been crucified to me, and I to the world. (NIV)


As for me, may I never boast about anything except the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ. Because of that cross, my interest in this world has been crucified, and the world's interest in me has also died. (NLT)
Galatians 6:14 


Finally, back to Malaysia after three and half years in US for education, after 23 hours (?) of flight. I'm thankful for the experience that I have gone through for my time spent in US.

Right now, I'm home and trying to settle different stuffs such as bank account, car, job, etc. The reality might have hit me - I'm back to Malaysia. The weather is really killing me. My head hurt because of the heat. With so many things going on, it's so easy for me to forget a gratitude and humble heart.

The verse above is from my QT today. May I never boast about anything except the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ even in the time of transition and searching for future direction. :)

Jesus, I need you!!

Believe it or not. It has been just two weeks after graduation. Like what my roommate always says, unemployment 14th day. However, every day is a day that I deeply need my Lord's mercy. Temptation, laziness, and doubts all came rushing to my way since my graduation. Perhaps this is our human weakness.

I tried to structure my life. I really want to live my every moment for Christ. But I failed.

Once again, I was reminded that I need Christ. Uncertainties is lying ahead of me. I dislike saying goodbye and leaving the church and people whom I love.

But my provider and faithful Lord, You are the only one whom I live for. Even at this time, help me to glorify Your name. Let Your will be done :)

A new stage of life

Graduated. 11 days ago.

Right now bumming around :) Cleaning and packing. Saying goodbye. It seems much relaxing but inside me I know I miss my college time and my friends.

Well, it's time. Trust, and hope, and love.

Romans 12:1-2

¹ Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. ² Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

-Romans 12:1-2-

Living in this distracted world, I realize how hard to guard my heart which is always wandering around for things on the world. Lord, help me not to be attached to the world but be set apart for You. Lord, help me to look upon what you have done for me and obey You and love You with all my life. 

Nothing can be separated us from His love

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. -Romans 8:38-39

Love

I changed the title of my blog because I realize how far I have been going without really learning God's love. It's time for me to get down on my knees even to learn God's love, to know Him once again. 

Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who has been born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. -1 John 4:7-8

I cannot love if I don't know God and His love. Love is tough, love is tiring, but with God nothing shall be impossible. 

One Desire fast'2011: 1st day

I don't want to do what I used to do. It took me a while to really commit to this fast. As I entered the fast, I can sense that God is growing a heart in me to really read and study His words. It has been a while I really spend so long time in reading His words and asking questions and questions.

I enter this One Desire fast because I really wanna seek God in my future. Yea, for right now I'm planning to go back Malaysia but what's next? I really don't know but I know He knows. As His servant, I will follow wherever He go. So, these are something I'm gonna during the One desire fast:-

1. Read His words
2. Pray for Malaysia and learn more about Malaysia. Since I'm going back, I should equip myself first
3. Rest in His love: Sounds too broad? Hahaha. Just plainly drawing myself closer to God before doing anything ^.^